Sometimes I feel sorry for my future boyfriends. My past relationships have hardened me so much that right now it feels like no matter how good the new ones feel with how I can love them, it will never be as I would have before, which is unfortunate. It sounds like this could be a phase to you I’m sure, but it might not be. And tbh I really hope it isn’t because I feel a lot safer now being less of a mushy attached person.
